Anita B.

When I first heard the message of intimacy, it made my heart burn with desire to learn more.  My spirit soared because I was so touched and powerfully impacted.  It just really clicked.  I felt like a giddy teenager “in love” for the first time.  But I was so excited and hungry for intimacy that it frustrated me to learn that it is a process.  I wanted intimacy so much and I wanted it NOW.  I just couldn’t wait to be “filled.”  I didn’t know how hungry and thirsty I was until I heard the truth about intimacy with Jesus as my Bridegroom.  It seemed too good to be true that God wanted ME.  I had been taught that God loved me, but I had perceived it to be in a way that a parent loves – you love your kid just because it’s your kid.  I thought God loved me because He had to, just because I was His child.  Even believing God had that kind of love was a long time coming to me.  I grew up thinking that He was watching me from a distance, waiting for me to mess up so He could punish me and put me back in my place.  So, to believe that God wanted to be intimate with me was almost unthinkable.  

Learning that I was created for intimacy with Jesus has changed the way I relate to Him, and now I long to be with Him all the time.  My relationship with Him has become very personal and my love for Him grows stronger every day.

Anita Byle